A few days ago, I wrote a quote that said- "aisi to naa thi meri hasti, jesa teri gustaakhiyon ne mujhe bana diya". It was just randomly written. Most of the times, whatever I write is quite random. Although I wrote the above mentioned quote earlier, I realized it's meaning yesterday only when something really took over me.
I posted something on my face book wall and then I had to delete it soon, as my teacher made me realize about the kind of language I used in that post. And yeah, indeed it was necessary. Only a teacher can make his students walk the right path. He has always been a constant companion and is always there by my side. How can I insult his teachings by doing such a rubbish thing? It indeed felt bad. And of course, your best friend is someone whom you can rely on always. Even she will never ever allow you to take such a wrong step.
"Don't malign your tongue" was one of the comments on that post. Less than 10 people would have seen it, and just two comments made me feel restless. In a few moments, the post was deleted.
Later, at night I gave it all a thought. After going through rounds of self- introspection, I realized that it was all because of some people amongst whom I lost my "innocence" I was never like this- rude, rough, outspoken. People who hardly matter suddenly started bothering, and the end-result was that post.
With full remorse, I wish to say that it was not me who wrote that one line. Some wrong and negative thoughts compelled me to do so. I was so lost and exhausted that I didn't think even once before writing such a thing. It was wrong, really wrong. I never possessed those rotten thoughts. Nevertheless, I just realize that somewhere in that world, I lost an introvert, quiet, shy, patient and innocent girl in me and I truly miss her.
I posted something on my face book wall and then I had to delete it soon, as my teacher made me realize about the kind of language I used in that post. And yeah, indeed it was necessary. Only a teacher can make his students walk the right path. He has always been a constant companion and is always there by my side. How can I insult his teachings by doing such a rubbish thing? It indeed felt bad. And of course, your best friend is someone whom you can rely on always. Even she will never ever allow you to take such a wrong step.
"Don't malign your tongue" was one of the comments on that post. Less than 10 people would have seen it, and just two comments made me feel restless. In a few moments, the post was deleted.
Later, at night I gave it all a thought. After going through rounds of self- introspection, I realized that it was all because of some people amongst whom I lost my "innocence" I was never like this- rude, rough, outspoken. People who hardly matter suddenly started bothering, and the end-result was that post.
With full remorse, I wish to say that it was not me who wrote that one line. Some wrong and negative thoughts compelled me to do so. I was so lost and exhausted that I didn't think even once before writing such a thing. It was wrong, really wrong. I never possessed those rotten thoughts. Nevertheless, I just realize that somewhere in that world, I lost an introvert, quiet, shy, patient and innocent girl in me and I truly miss her.
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