I FEEL SCARED!!

There she came with hopes in her eyes,
Bringing the sun which might not rise..
Never I wanted to witness her in this life,,
It indeed took years to end this strife...

I can't decide whether who was at fault,
But she made me a felon by default..
Things were well after we departed,,
Yet her sudden arrival makes me dead...

My heart won't be able to dwell again,
No more we can enjoy that dance in the rain..
I bet those moments will never be the same,,
The reunion will only bring the blame game...

It's hard to understand the plot in her mind,
Why is she suddenly being so kind??
The doubts are still hovering in my heart,,
What was it that forced us to depart???

My thoughts don't know where to go,
Should I accept the life's flow??
Being sorry is not the only thing,,
My destiny has so much to bring....

So clueless I feel at this moment,
Tears don't allow me to lament..
My heart is not ready to accept,,
I really don't care how much she wept...

No matter what she brings with her,
I never wanted her presence in my future..
I might sound wicked but it's the truth,,
I have gone through the state of ruth...

I feel scared to lose "someone else",,
Giving it a thought my heart so melts...
I would be lifeless if that "else" is gone,,
"She" is the only courage bringing dark to dawn...